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Tuesday, 07 October 2008

  • Is there anyone else out there who could possibly love me? I just want to bring him lunch at work and fall asleep on the couch with him, watching a movie. But he doesn't want me to meet his friends or family. I'm just a little secret that he keeps, not even his girlfriend anymore. Just a girl now. A girl who's not good enough for him to show off to the other people in his life. It's not like I can just move on. He's my best friend. I tell him all my secrets. He's the first one I call when I have good news, and the shoulder I cry on when I have bad. He's the one who always shows up when I need him. What I don't understand is, that if I'm not good enough for him now, and I've only improved since I met him, why did he want me in the first place? HE wanted ME. I didn't show up at his doorstep and start stalking him, he's the one who pursued me and convinced me that he was everything I could ever want. Only now, he IS everything I could ever want, but he no longer wants me. And I can't help but wonder if there's anyone else out there in the universe who could possibly want me if someone as great as him doesn't.

Wednesday, 01 October 2008

  • Lost Faith in the Human Race

    Let's just start off on a high note by saying this: Life sucks. Why sugar coat it?

    I have officially lost hope in the human race. Honestly, I don't think there's one person left on this planet who still "does the right thing". It's all about money, or how people see you, or what you can get from the world. Now don't get me wrong; I'm not your typical misunderstood, angst-filled, emo teenager. In fact, I'm not even a teenager. I'm a full blown, responsibility-ridden adult. (Not sure how it happened or when, but desperately trying to make it stop.) But I will admit that I am a "glass half empty" kinda girl. And for good reason.

    I went to a Christian school for a few years. In a science class one year, we watched a video about "Dr. Dino", a Mr. Kent Hovind, who preached some very valid points against evolution. Tonight during a conversation with a friend (about evolution and religion) I brought up this gentleman, and upon returning home, googled him only to find out that this man and his wife are now in prison for tax evasion. Amazing how I can feel so let down by a complete stranger.

    NOBODY does the right thing anymore. Not "Dr. Dino". Not Derek. (The friend I was talking to, and coincidentally my ex-boyfriend who I placed utmost faith and trust in.) Not even my own mother and father.

    Well, in case you haven't figured it out by now, this is my venting place. I'm not a completely unpleasant person, however after reading my blog, you may tend to disagree.

    More to come...

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